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I'm tired of this...I quit...seriously! It's over!
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25. November 2006 @ 19:46 |
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I'm so tired of this bulls**t! I'm quitting. Never thought I'd have to say that, but this is beyond repair. I'm so f***ing sick of the s**t I have to go through each day I live this. I don't want to give in, trust me, but I can't f***ing take it any longer. I'm destroying myself piece by piece staying here, waiting like this. Every day, I fall apart more and more over what? ...NOTHING! I'm wasting my f***ing time waiting and it only makes it harder to live. Nothing is what is used to be. A few weeks ago I wanted to wait, I wanted to strive for more, but now, it's f***ing over. I can't wait any longer. I can't sit here wondering what I'm going to do next...I waited long enough and I'm tired of it. You and they can call me what you like, 'cause I don't give a f*** anymore. Your wasting our life holding off like this. I just can't take this s**t any longer. I'm falling and falling and I can't climb. I've lost my way now that it's gone. I hope you enjoy your bullsh**t f***ing life with them and I hope they destroy you just like you have me!! I hope you fall so far under you never see what was real again. I hope this is what you wanted, 'cause it's exactly what you're getting. I knew from day 730 you wanted it, and guess what...? You're f***ing getting it!! I hope you waste into nothing, just like me! F*** you and all of them! Enjoy what what was and what could have been. I'm out...forever!! Don't come back here 'cause you won't be wanted.
I f***ing quit...bitch!
Close this if you like, but don't hide it. I need this...
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25. November 2006 @ 19:53 |
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Niobis
whats this all about,who's on you?
or are ye on your self?
i pray your not quiting life?
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25. November 2006 @ 19:54 |
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what the? What are you talking about and to who?
^^psycho^^
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25. November 2006 @ 20:00 |
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@Niobis
I have just read your post and I am quite disturbed by it. Can you please tell us what has happened and if we can offer any assistance at all ( be it from far away). You have helped me on a few occasions and I for one am very greatful for your help. Please dont do anything you'll regret later.....please alow us to help you through your problems.
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25. November 2006 @ 20:06 |
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It's about me being completely fed up with the s**t I have to go through. Personal it may be, but I needed to get this out. I just can't take it...it's f***ing killing me! I don't know what to do anymore. I've waited, I was patient, but it can't go on any longer. I'm f***ing giving up just a p***y ass quitter, but I don't care! I just can't live like this waiting on what...what good does waiting help? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!
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I may be, but I could care less. I've done more than my share of being psycho in the past with this. And I learned that the hard way. I can't do it anymore. If that's what it takes to give in, then so be it, tocool4u.
My other is what this is about. My other is who this is to. I'm sorry, but I can't go on.
Maybe I post this, unconsciously asking for help. What?
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25. November 2006 @ 20:12 |
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your not psycho..!!!!!!!!!!!!
you just need to get it off ye chest
we are here to help you,what are you waiting for..
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just can't take it...it's f***ing killing me! I don't know what to do anymore. I've waited, I was patient, but it can't go on any longer. I'm f***ing giving up just a p***y ass quitter, but I don't care! I just can't live like this waiting on what...what good does waiting help? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!
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25. November 2006 @ 20:18 |
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@Niobis
I believe that the post by toocool4u was completely unwarranted so please ignore it. As stated, if I can assist you in ANY way then please let me know, it's very hard looking at my monitor and seeing you go through some anguish and not being able to help in any way..can you please say what has caused you to feel as you do.
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25. November 2006 @ 20:29 |
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I'm waiting to be whole again. 1 and 1 is 1, correct...I like to think so.
I'm broken and cannot be fixed unless I wait for her to come back. But waiting doesn't help anything in my opinion. Waiting destroys parts of me that I only found in these past two years. I've found so much I was in need of in her. She was everything to me, she was my other half, making us 1. But she's killing me men. She wants me to wait on her. Why the hell do I have to wait? Why the hell is it her decision? Why do I have to do everything single thing she demands from me?
I can't do it men, I can't wait for her to come back. It's too f***ing hard. I will seriously end up resulting to suicide from this, and I don't want that. But this is worse than being dead! I'd rather be dead than sitting here like a f***ing knot on a log waiting on her.
I can't go 10 damn minutes without worrying. I've worried myself to the point of no return. I sit here in front of this damn computer trying to help myself relieve the pain, but nothing help, NOTHING! I can't quit thinking and worrying. I don't know why she can't see this. I think she wants me to suffer. She tells me she wants to get back, but she doesn't know when. I'm sorry, but I can't go on just waiting on her. Two years, two f***ing years! Two years of wonderful love with her and now this...I'm sick of it! I can't go on. I'd rather be dead!!!
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25. November 2006 @ 20:40 |
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Niobis
i wish i can give ye a answer to stop the pain,
please do not do anything harsh to your self..
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I believe that the post by toocool4u was completely unwarranted
gwendolin
i agree with you...
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25. November 2006 @ 20:41 |
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I know it must be hard for you, is there somebody who is close to you that you can talk to...it's very hard trying to do so via the "net", all I can say is hang in there...tomorrow is another day and hopefully, for you a brighter one.
Can you not leave your comp and visit friends or relations...being at home alone will only make the situation worse, dont do anything foolish, Cheers.
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25. November 2006 @ 20:57 |
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I hate to admit it guys, but that's a problem. I have no one to talk to.She is my one and only best friend. I do have a brother in which I am really close to, but he's always with his new girlfriend since his other died. I lost all my friends after high school and never talk to anyone. I'm a damn loner and I guess that's why she is so special to me. She's all I have in this world and I can't go on without her, and she knows this about as much as I do. She knows what she is to me, but I don't think she cares. All she cares about anymore is herself and her own f.....
I'm getting to damn personal with this s**t. I know you guys don't care about my personal life, so I won't make you bear through it. I just don't know how to go on alone. Hell, I can't! I can't do s**t without needed her I want more than anything to say the exact words I posted in the first post to her, but I can't. If I do, I know I'll never have any chance of getting her back. I want so bad to just give in and find someone else, but myself won't let me. I f***ing hate love! I hate having that part of my brain! If I must love, I rather be gone.
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25. November 2006 @ 21:03 |
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I'm getting to damn personal with this s**t. I know you guys don't care about my personal life
I know nothing about you except that without your recent assistance I would not have been able to solve my problem.
Your statement is INCORRECT if someone has a problem and I find I can assist in any way then my ears are always open...I have seen my son in exactly the same situation as you, pining over a jilted lover, fortunately he was able to talk about things and is now over it....try talking with your brother...NOTHING should be more important than for him to try and help you, Cheers.
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25. November 2006 @ 21:09 |
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gwendolin, thanks mate, but you'd have to my brother. He only 22 years old and his wife died this year so he's not really in a state of mind to talk to about things like this. I've tried talking to him, but his look on life now is f*** everything and everyone. He tells me I need to give up and move on. I tell him, but I don't think he knows how much I feel for this girl. Actually, I don't think anyone does. It's sad, but it's almost to the point of obsession...
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25. November 2006 @ 21:18 |
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I cannot advise you to give up on the girl but I can advise you not to allow your love for her to consume your life...at present things may seem hopeless but tomorrow is another day, live it as it comes...gradually start doing those things that you used to do and maybe in the near future things may become a little brighter for you. Your brother is somewhat of an example..he has suffered a tragic loss but seems to be slowly moving on with life.
You do have me quite concerned for you and I just wish I were there to be able to offer you some support....I'm sure once more members of AD become active you will really see how much support you do have...hang on in there.
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25. November 2006 @ 21:33 |
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but I can advise you not to allow your love for her to consume your life
Heh, that's easier said than done. :) We're hitting week 3 this coming Monday and nothing has changed for me. I still feel like s**t everyday I wake up. I feel like there is nothing left in this for me. I suppose it's my fault...long story, but if I had not pursued, I would have never found what I really wanted/needed in this life.
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gradually start doing those things that you used to do and maybe in the near future things may become a little brighter for you.
I surely hope so, but I doubt it. As I've said, she's all I've got right now in this time. And now that she's gone, I have no one to lean on in times of despair and hatred.
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You do have me quite concerned for you and I just wish I were there to be able to offer you some support.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, but you guys asked. ;)
Thank you for caring though. You have to be a good person to care like that and not even know me. I really appreciate it!
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25. November 2006 @ 21:36 |
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At the moment, due to commitments I cannot get back to you as often as I would like...in the meantime hopefully someone will come along, read the thread and offer support. Hang in there and I will get back to you as soon as I can. Cheers.
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25. November 2006 @ 21:49 |
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i'm sick and jst try to shock people but yes, i am very sick
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25. November 2006 @ 22:01 |
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WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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25. November 2006 @ 22:03 |
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Niobis
I know how you feel (at least to some extent). The words of advice I can offer you is simply this keep your chin up I know life can be hard (I had a cousin in a similar situation to what your bro is going through). I know how you feel about this girl, I felt probably the exact same way about my first ex-girlfriend who ment the world to me and then one day practically dumped me on my butt.
I tried, though parents sisters etc., to get over her but it took me a long time. It did happen though.
One thing that helped me (Sorry, I don't mean to bring religion too deeply in here) is that I prayed.
I am not pushing anything but I am just simply saying what seemed to help me get though a similar situation.
Sorry if anyone is offended by the idea, if you are please send me a PM or simply reply and I will get rid of this post.
Peace,
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25. November 2006 @ 22:15 |
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@Monocat
I find your post MOST OFFENSIVEand have asked to have it removed, how does this help the present situation by trying to shock.
@Niobis
Hope you're hanging in there and that you receive much more support from you AD family.
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25. November 2006 @ 22:33 |
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Monocat, don't expect to stay here long with bulls**t like that. You can go to hell for all I care. *REPORTED*
Actually, I know someone didn't join aD just to post that picture. Why don't you show your real identity and quit hiding like a p***y? I apologize for that statement...Dunker tells the truth about those guys later...
@Pop_Smith, beside the assh**e above, I'm not offended. Although, I'm not religious so I won't be praying. :) But thank you anyway. I really didn't mean to start a support thread, but ireland and gwendolin asked, so I told.
You said you got over it, but with me I don't think I will or even can. As stated above she's almost an obsession. I guess it's because I've never really had anyone to show me what I needed in life. I really don't want to give up to tell the truth, I'm just sick of waiting on her.
Edit 2: Sorted now.
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25. November 2006 @ 22:37 |
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i'm a lowlife sick bigot
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25. November 2006 @ 22:38 |
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@Gwendolyn: I'm a retarded idiot of the highest order
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25. November 2006 @ 22:39 |
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I'm just sick of waiting on her
On reading between the lines it appears that you can see that the "romance" appears to be a little one sided, you have accepted this fact now dont you think it's about time you did let go and start looking for someone who can give you love and affection....there are a million souls out there and surely there is someone who would be thankfull to have you.
As for the offensive post I have also reported it and hopefully he/she will Get the SUSPENSION rightly deserved
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25. November 2006 @ 22:41 |
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ouch those brass nails hurt my toes
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